I love this little cheesy song

The day I first met you

You told me you'd never fall in love

But now that I get you

I know fear is what it really was
Now here we are, so close

Yet so far, haven't I passed the test?

When will you realize

Baby, I'm not like the rest
Don't wanna break your heart

I wanna give your heart a break

I know you're scared it's wrong

Like you might make a mistake

There's just one life to live

And there's no time to waste, to waste
So let me give your heart a break

Give your heart a break

Let me give your heart a break

Your heart a break
Oh, yeah yeah
On Sunday, you went home aloneThere were tears in your eyesI called your cell phone, my loveBut you did not reply
The world is ours, if you want it

We can take it, if you just take my hand

There's no turning back now

Baby, try to understand
Don't wanna break your heart

Wanna give your heart a break

I know you're scared it's wrong

Like you might make a mistake

There's just one life to live

And there's no time to waste, to waste
So let me give your heart a break

Give your heart a break

Let me give your heart a break

Your heart a break

There's just so much you can take

Give your heart a break

Let me give your heart a break

Your heart a break
Oh, yeah yeah
When your lips are on my lipsAnd our hearts beat as one

But you slip right out of my fingertips

Every time you run, whoa
Don't wanna break your heart

Wanna give your heart a break

I know you're scared it's wrong

Like you might make a mistake

There's just one life to live

And there's no time to waste, to waste

So let me give your heart a break
Cuz you've been hurt beforeI can see it in your eyesYou try to smile it awaySome things, you can't disguiseDon't wanna break your heartBaby, I can ease the ache, the ache
So, let me give your heart a break

Give your heart a break

Let me give your heart a break

Your heart a break

There's just so much you can take

Give your heart a break

Let me give your heart a break

Your heart a break
Oh yeah,yeah
The day I first met you

You told me you'd never fall in love

A New Year a New Love

When choosing a New Years resolution I wanted to think about little things that would better my life.  Instead of one big thing like most people, ie loose weeight, quit smoking, save money, ect.  I am choosing a few small things I think I can really accomplish and would make me enjoy life in Utah more. 
2011 braught one amazing person into my life.  Adam is wonderfully smart and silly and I am a sucker for his big green eyes and huge smile.  So I don't have to worry about dating in the new year.  If all goes to my plan I will be ending it the way it began.... with a kiss from Adam.
Okay enough gushy stuff.  Lets begin with my first resolution:
1:  To be more silly.
Although my extensive maturity level has helped me to move up in my career at a young age I want to tap into the old Rena.  The girl that does Jim Carey impressions, sings Disney songs, and dances to Backstreet Boys.  So in 2012 I would like to take an improv class, or actually watch the cheesy comedies that I have been avoiding for years.  I blame Wes Anderson.  His dry witty movies changed the way I thought about comdey.  But I related to his films.  I often feel like my life can be a scene from The Royal Tenenbaums.  Just plain awkward.  It is time to be more spontanious.

2.  Ride my bike more.
Salt Lake is rated #8 in the top 10 US cities to live without a car.  We have plenty of bike lanes, wide streets, and you can take your bike on the train.  So why is my bike just sitting in my apartment.  Well at the moment it has a flat tire.  Which I got the third time I rode it this summer and never had it replaced.  Biking is great excersize and good physical theropy for my knees.  I would bike to work but I only live 2 blocks and with the one way streets it is actually faster to walk.  So come spring.  I will bike everyday.  At least a mile.  Cause even on a busy day I should be able to fit a mile bike ride in.  Wow this sounds like a commitment.  This will most likely be the hardest resolution for me.

3.  Go to more Real Salt Lake games.
When I first moved here a went to RSL (soccer) games at tha rice eccles statium.  And for someone who has never liked sports... I was hooked.  The excitement in the crowd.  The culture.  The feild.  I love it all.  I now have 2 jersey's, a lanyard, a hat, and socks.  This past 2011 season I didnt go to a single game.  I love there new Rio Tinto stadium and find the games a good change of pace from working so much.  I want to watch the Chiva's and the LA Galaxy.  I want to cheer for Olave, Williams, and Beckerman.  Come on Real Come on!

So this is my plan.  Sounds fun and challenging.  I think if I can stick to these 3 resolutions I will be happy in 2012.  3 little changes that can better my mind, body, and spirit.

All I want for Christmas is you... and presents

Every year I take advantage  of all the great deals around the holidays to pick up a few things I want or need.  Last year I got myself a jewelry armoire and some much needed winter clothes.  This I got myself a tablet.  To help with work.  My laptop is just too heavy and large to carry in my purse.  And I got a sweet deal, a Pandigital Multimedia Novel 2GB 7" Touchscreen Tablet Android w/Barnes & Noble, for only $82!!! Merry Christmas to me.    So if my income was greater and I could buy everything I wanted it would look like this.  I guess this is my christmas list.......

• A new Matress
• A real camera (not connected to a phone)
• A trip - vegas, oregon, anywhere
• Gift cards - I love  H & M, crate and barrel, etc
• Chocolate diamonds - my new favorite jewelry trend
• An add on closet from Ikea - I need more storage

Adam and I decorated my tree to get in the holiday spirit.  And I made a matching chandelier.  The tree looks so trendy and cool.  I think this will be a good christmas.

Selfish or smart?

I have learned about someone being pregnant every week for the last month. Seriously I can name 6 People expecting right now. It makes me wonder, why am I not wanting to settle down and start a family. I mean after all I am 27 years old and living in the top baby making state.

Is something wrong with me? I think I am just affraid, Honestly I dont trust anyone. Deep down I Dont believe love can last that long. And I would never want to be a single parent. Just because I love you now and melt when I see your smile and can shut my eyes and picture a life with you does not mean it will happen. Who knows where we will be in 1 year... 5 years... or 15 years. I am not even in a relationship where having children is a discusion. I guess I am just on the outside looking in and thinking "whats the whole fuss about?" I mean seriously are havinf kids so great. Parents... do you ever wish you could take a month off. Travel the world. Go shopping. Sleep through the night. Is being a parent really worth it? I know kids are a blessing, bla bla bla. I love all my friends kids. But I want to see the world. I want to go to museums, and art shows, I want to be able to buy a new pair of shoes when I want. I want to have alone time with my partner. I want to look sexy in a dress.

I guess if money was not a problem, and I had a loyal steady partner, and I could garentee my baby was a beautiful little genius with tan skin and light eyes... Then i would totally have a baby. I would even have two. lol.

According to a online quiz:
You are 67% ready for a baby!
You are in a situation where you could have a baby relatively comfortably in the relatively near future. Your situation in life is good and you are in a good position to welcome a new person into your life.

By the way... Dont freak out... I am just being funny, I am not actually thinking about having a baby :)

I am a Domestic Goddess!

Last night I made Spaghetti, asparagus, and garlic bread. After dinner I gave my man a back massage and we both went to bed very happy. This morning I baked banana bread from scratch and chopped vegetables in preparation for a hearty beef stew. Which will be warm and ready when Adam is done with school.

Wheres my gold star? I feel so empowered. I am cooking again. I like having someone to cook for. And I did it in heels.

Upgrades

After running into my snobby and bitchy ex-sister in-law this weekend It got me thinking. I have really upgraded my life in the last year. I went from being in an unhealthy marriage and at a job I hated. I thought I could make everything better and that it was temperary. Well it was. Choosing to leave the Hotel was the first step. On June 22nd 2010 I walked out on my stressful job and didnt look back. Well I do go back and visit every once in a while. Then my marriage went to shit and my awesome group of friends turned out to be just his friends, well except one. I didnt feel like I had any direction.

Its been over a year and I sorted out my friends that were taking advantage of my generosity. I I met a guy who was smart, funny, sexy, and so much fun. He really makes me feel good. And I dont feel held back. I can pursue my goals and not feel like I am being selfish. I found a better paying job that is a good fit for me. I am back around fashion and retail. I was promoted after only a few months and have even been featured on TV giving a fashion segment.

So basically:

work=good

love life=good

friends=good

and I get to see my parents in a few weeks. Yay! I have missed them so much.

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