Selfish or smart?

I have learned about someone being pregnant every week for the last month. Seriously I can name 6 People expecting right now. It makes me wonder, why am I not wanting to settle down and start a family. I mean after all I am 27 years old and living in the top baby making state.

Is something wrong with me? I think I am just affraid, Honestly I dont trust anyone. Deep down I Dont believe love can last that long. And I would never want to be a single parent. Just because I love you now and melt when I see your smile and can shut my eyes and picture a life with you does not mean it will happen. Who knows where we will be in 1 year... 5 years... or 15 years. I am not even in a relationship where having children is a discusion. I guess I am just on the outside looking in and thinking "whats the whole fuss about?" I mean seriously are havinf kids so great. Parents... do you ever wish you could take a month off. Travel the world. Go shopping. Sleep through the night. Is being a parent really worth it? I know kids are a blessing, bla bla bla. I love all my friends kids. But I want to see the world. I want to go to museums, and art shows, I want to be able to buy a new pair of shoes when I want. I want to have alone time with my partner. I want to look sexy in a dress.

I guess if money was not a problem, and I had a loyal steady partner, and I could garentee my baby was a beautiful little genius with tan skin and light eyes... Then i would totally have a baby. I would even have two. lol.

According to a online quiz:
You are 67% ready for a baby!
You are in a situation where you could have a baby relatively comfortably in the relatively near future. Your situation in life is good and you are in a good position to welcome a new person into your life.

By the way... Dont freak out... I am just being funny, I am not actually thinking about having a baby :)

I am a Domestic Goddess!

Last night I made Spaghetti, asparagus, and garlic bread. After dinner I gave my man a back massage and we both went to bed very happy. This morning I baked banana bread from scratch and chopped vegetables in preparation for a hearty beef stew. Which will be warm and ready when Adam is done with school.

Wheres my gold star? I feel so empowered. I am cooking again. I like having someone to cook for. And I did it in heels.

Upgrades

After running into my snobby and bitchy ex-sister in-law this weekend It got me thinking. I have really upgraded my life in the last year. I went from being in an unhealthy marriage and at a job I hated. I thought I could make everything better and that it was temperary. Well it was. Choosing to leave the Hotel was the first step. On June 22nd 2010 I walked out on my stressful job and didnt look back. Well I do go back and visit every once in a while. Then my marriage went to shit and my awesome group of friends turned out to be just his friends, well except one. I didnt feel like I had any direction.

Its been over a year and I sorted out my friends that were taking advantage of my generosity. I I met a guy who was smart, funny, sexy, and so much fun. He really makes me feel good. And I dont feel held back. I can pursue my goals and not feel like I am being selfish. I found a better paying job that is a good fit for me. I am back around fashion and retail. I was promoted after only a few months and have even been featured on TV giving a fashion segment.

So basically:

work=good

love life=good

friends=good

and I get to see my parents in a few weeks. Yay! I have missed them so much.

Me on CW30's The Daily Dish

You must be a Masochist for falling for me

Take a chance:

I have been very pesamistic through out the last year. It is no lie that my marriage made me believe all men are liars and annd in-laws will be judmental brats. However somehow out of the blue in walks this great man. Now dont go telling him that I am saying this. But I really think he is sweet and I catch myself imagining my future with him in it. Dont worry I am not gonna run off and get engaded..... lol and if I do I would like a 5 year engagement... at least :)

Nah on a serious note.... I moved on a long time ago from my ex husband... but then was ppoled into a life of seriel dating and flings. I ran away the second a guy acted attached. I have thought about running this time. honestly it crosses my mind once a day. But some force keeps pulling me back. Maybe its those green eyes or his huge smile. I like this one. He is special. He treats me great and misses me and wants to be near me. And I hope he also imagines his future with me. I think we could have many adventures together.

What a great Monday night... this song was playing in my head.

You're so hypnotizing
Could you be the devil?
Could you be an angel?

Your touch magnetizing
Feels like I am floating
Leaves my body glowing

They say, be afraid
You're not like the others
Futuristic lover
Different DNA
They don't understand you

[Pre-Chorus]
You're from a whole 'nother world
A different dimension
You open my eyes
And I'm ready to go
Lead me into the light

Kiss me, kiss me
Infect me with your love and
Fill me with your poison

Take me, take me
Wanna be a victim
Ready for abduction

Boy, you're an alien
Your touch so foreign
It's supernatural
Extraterrestrial

[Verse 2]
You're so supersonic
Wanna feel your powers
Stun me with your lasers
Your kiss is cosmic
Every move is magic

[Pre-Chorus]
You're from a whole 'nother world
A different dimension
You open my eyes
And I'm ready to go
Lead me into the light

[Chorus]
Kiss me, kiss me
Infect me with your love and
Fill me with your poison

Take me, ta-ta-take me
Wanna be a victim
Ready for abduction

Boy, you're an alien
Your touch so foreign
It's supernatural
Extraterrestrial

[Bridge]
This is transcendental
On another level
Boy, you're my lucky star

I wanna walk on your wave length
And be there when you vibrate
For you I'll risk it all
All

[Chorus]
Kiss me, kiss me
Infect me with your love and
Fill me with your poison

Take me, ta-ta-take me
Wanna be a victim
Ready for abduction

Boy, you're an alien
Your touch so foreign
It's supernatural
Extraterrestrial

Extraterrestrial
Extraterrestrial

Boy, you're an alien
Your touch so foreign
It's supernatural
Extraterrestrial

Dating myself

I am devoting the summer to being single, or as I am calling it "Dating Myself". Until a man can say this quote from Breakfast at tiffiny's and change my mind that is





"...You know what's wrong with you, Miss Whoever-you-are? You're chicken, you've got no guts. You're afraid to stick out your chin and say, "Okay, life's a fact, people do fall in love, people do belong to each other, because that's the only chance anybody's got for real happiness." You call yourself a free spirit, a "wild thing," and you're terrified somebody's gonna stick you in a cage. Well baby, you're already in that cage. You built it yourself. And it's not bounded in the west by Tulip, Texas, or in the east by Somali-land. It's wherever you go. Because no matter where you run, you just end up running into yourself."